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Yesterday, was the day I thought about us. What will happen if this really come true. Will I accept it? Maybe all these are a hoax? I may not know.
We didn't talk yesterday till at night which was rather cool cause I think I can resist talking to you.
I thought we were over, till I saw your text this morning.

I'm feeling so tired since yesterday. Had less then 5 hours sleep altogether in 2 days. Yesterday I was hoping too much, too much that you will take the initiative to talk to me but you didn't. And yesterday was quite scary for me. I was damn scared but you werent there. So this proves another point that it ain't true.
All these factors make it so contradicting and ironic till I don't know which is the real truth.

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But from now on, im not really gonna care so whatever that is meant to be, it will be i guess?
Everything to take its own course, no expectations, no disappointments.
Probably this is the best way out.
I don't know. I don't know if that day at Seoul i did the right thing, but i hope so, it was general, a little bit general but that's what i really hope from us.
I don't dare or rather not have the guts to say that, cause everything is not confirmed and that im still not sure.