Stars tonight

Tonight I see a lot of stars.
But which one belongs to you?
Wish that you were just here.


Suddenly thought of my cousin who passed away without me knowing it. I was kept in the dark and I didn't attend her funeral. Maybe if you are still alive, you will be married by now and getting birth.


Maybe such things happened for a reason and that everything happen for a reason. Be it good or bad, it might want us to learn a lesson. Learn how to love the people around you, learn how to cherish each and every human being whom are dear to you and learn that you are fortunate.


How I wish I have a younger brother or older sister who will share things with me instead of me to parents. Sometimes it's just generation gap that makes me unable to communicate with them. What I want was being friends with them but that wasn't what they want.

I don't know who to talk to sometimes. Knowing that I might lose anyone dear to me any moment any time. They can't stay forever. And I cant imagine what will happen if they are gone one day. I think I would be at a loss and stuck for a period of time searching my way back. Back to who i truly am.

So don't ever leave me without telling me.